I Couldn't Do For You

Because happy is what happens when all your dreams come true... Isn't it?

I am surprisingly calm. About everything. I have this week figured out. Beyond that, who really knows?

And yet, I really am continually amazed at just how strong I am. I know we never really got along. But regardless, I know that we'll always be there for each other, and I think that's what love really is.

And I think that's what real friendship really is too. Because the more and more I thought about it, the more and more I realized that if I showed up at Jekka's she'd put a roof over my head, if only for a little while. And I realized I have such amazing friends. And that I have such amazing family.

I am surrounded by people who love me and people who make sacrifices for me. People who don't take me for granted. People who comfort me and feed me and love me and help me.

People who are basically complete strangers. People who I only met months ago. People who I met years ago and only recently re-connected with. People I've always known, who have probably always been there.

Wonder why it took me so long to realize it?

I know she's done a lot for me. And no matter how often we fight I'll always love her. And I know that I can always depend on her.

But I honestly do believe this is for the best.

I get to see an old friend tomorrow. I have a place to stay every night this week. I am surrounded by good caring people and I've done right so far. I can handle this.

I know how strong I am, and I know I can do this. I really can.

Really, what choice do I have?