Fact of Life

My perception is so incredibly skewed by my literature. I have to keep reminding myself, it only happens that way in fiction.

But that's not always true. There are examples in real life. And there are fictional stories with endings that make you cry.

But the one thing I dont understand, what I dont think I'll ever be able to understand, is how you can go from loving someone more than anything, promising them the world and more, honestly be willing to do anything they asked, and then one day just throw it all away. How do people just walk away from something they took so much time to build?

I'd like to believe that the happiness and warmth I feel will keep lasting interminably. But I know that realistically, there's a very slim chance of that happening. Before, I worried about that slim chance endlessly - but now, no matter what the outcome could be, that sliver of hope has become a blinding light. I know that at any given moment, everything could be ripped away from me - I know exactly how that feels - but ya know what? I dont care. Because the memories are worth it. Because this happiness is something I wouldnt trade for the world. Because when we race to jinx eachother, we smile the entire time. Because he worries about me, just like I worry about him. Because I love him, more than anything and everything put together, I love him. And I know for certain that he loves me in return.

And that is the most powerful feeling, the greatest strength, the soundest happiness, that a human being can ever feel - loving someone unconditionally, and being loved in return. Which is why I dont understand how people can change their minds like they do. But I guess I've never been in that situation, and truthfully I hope I never have to experience that doubt.

All because two people fell in love.