Time Stops for No One

I finally get it. The feather, the mirror, the quote. The letter.

I finally understand what he was trying to teach me. He wasnt trying to teach me a lesson, he wasnt reprimanding me for making up stories.

He was trying to show me what would happen if I kept lying to myself. If I kept pretending to be something Im not.

I thought Id figured it out much earlier, that's why I was so keen on trying to discover myself, so I no longer had to pretend - but I think maybe, forcing myself to decide what made me who I am negated the lesson as well.

That cry to be different, to be unique - that wasnt really me. I wasnt doing things because I enjoyed them, I was doing things because they seemed exciting, because they'd make good stories.

I finally understand what he was trying to show me. There is no one way to live life, no one sure road to happiness. Everything happens in its own different way, every experience is different. There's really no need to be different or unique forcefully. By being yourself, by listening to your feelings and thoughts, you make yourself happy. You live. If you love yourself, if you're honest with yourself and with others, if you can live a balanced life, no matter what happens, you can be happy, you live your life.

I've finally realized what everyone's been trying to show me for so long - I dont need to discover myself, Im here already, and as time goes on, Ill get to know myself, bit by bit, so long as Im honest with myself.

Im sorry it took me so long to realize this Zane, and I hope, wherever you are, you're living how you taught me - doing something you love, being with people you love, and being true to yourself.

And honestly, I know that this may take some effort to get used to, actually, it will take alot of effort to live and just live, just keep things honest and pure and okay.

But I think I can do it. I know I can do this. It took me this long to finally learn a lesson - I wont let that lesson go to waste.