Aurora Borealis

I wish I could visit Alaska.  Maybe I can go  see Leo and play with Gary Paulsen's dogs. But it's so cold there. And I'd only want to go when I could see the pretty lights. Alright, not really, but they'd be a big plus.

Maybe I should write down my list of things I want to do. Except then I don't think I'd enjoy them as much, because I'd just be checking them off one by one. It would seem more like a burden than something to do for fun. And now I'm just trying to kill time.

I am a little anxious. A little excited. A little expecting.

But I'm starting to realize that's all normal. And yeah, making fun of Tyler is still a favorite pass time. And maybe I am too paranoid. Maybe I just need to relax. I know that everyone talks about everyone, even when they really care about them.

It's just human nature. And human nature is something I believe in. So maybe I need to learn to let things go and not be hurt by so much.

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad -
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had...

Not anymore, they're not.