What's the Worst Thing I Could Say?

When I see your smile,
Tears run down my face...
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold
And it breaks my soul
And you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole world,
Please dont throw that away
And I'm here for you
Please dont walk away -
Please tell me you'll stay.

So I've found my way back here again. It seems my revalation came about a week late. And yet, I still don't understand. Maybe it's the combination. And am I really all together, is that really what I believe? Or am I just trying to comfort myself? I guess I'll never know.

And I'm still amazed at how well I can manage this. It hurts so much. My breathing takes every bit of strength I have. But I can still keep it. Until I walk out among them. Until I try to talk.

I'm holding on tonight,
What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay?

And so every little bit of me isn't torn again. Because I honestly don't believe it. Because what he does always always always contradicts what he says. And the way he looks at me. I can handle it. I know. I hope.

So long, and good night.